one year ago today. the morning started with a visit from Dr. Helm (my perinatologyst). 36 weeks pregnant and 20 days into my hospital stay. my wait was coming to a quick end. with a dropping baby heart rate, i was induced at about 7:30 in the morning. deep breath. finally. i was so relieved. to know my wait was over. to know whether this baby was a boy or a girl. to be home. the rest of it was so quick, so smooth. 12:16pm, after 4 1/2 hours of labor, i had a baby. a baby boy. joy. pure joy.
name. name??... what to name this sweet boy. by 12:40 we had chosen jedidiah. BELOVED OF THE LORD. through our process, we felt the presence of God. this baby was sooo loved by the Lord. jedidiah's path was chosen long before he was created. oh, to be so in love. i never understood this love until now.
to my dear jedidiah,
jed, you have filled me with so much joy and fulfillment as a person and mother. from the day you were born, never once have i taken for granted the gift you are to jesse and me. God entrusted us to with you, to nurture you, help you grown, and to help you develop as a person. i pray that God grabs hold of your heart at an early age, that you see His glory and feel His presence. know Him. rest in Him. trust in Him. follow Him. life won't always be easy. we, as believers are promised trials. my prayer is that you are able to grow in character and faith every step of the way.
i have loved watching. studying you. learning from you. the way you analyze everything. your curiosity about life. how you like opening and closing. you love water, dog bowl water, pool water, water from faucets, wawa from a sippie cup, water through a straw, in a water bottle, shower, bath, sink, water everywhere. maybe it is baby einstein that caused your facination 'water water everywhere'...
"ooooh wats that", always pointing... when you wake up "ooooh wats that", when you cry, you pause "ooooh wats that"... always wondering.
on, off, on, off... "ah, ah, ah, ah" pointing at the light switch. so vocal. you know what you want. you turn the light on, then look, examine that the light did turn on and proceed to turn it off. repeat.
bbbbbbbbbb... the sound of a car. any time you see a car, push something that moves. bbbbbbbbbbbb...
you love pillow fights, when dad throws you onto the bed. joy. you are full of joy. from the day you were born, you have always wanted to be happy. you try so hard, even when you are teething, when your tummy is upset, when you have a fever, you try to be happy. a good nature is what i call it.
i love how you eat. double fisting. pick up food with one hand, shove it in with the other. we called it the sweep technique. peas make you gag. you love applesauce and bread. the messier, the better. i look forward to the day when you eat me out of house and home. it will come.
outside. you love outside. you cry when i let the dogs out and you can't go out. its cold now, too cold to always play outside. but you would be there, chattering and all. picking up rocks, discovering new corners of the yard, "ooooh, wats that?", trying to eat bark. thank God for the pool fence! you love the pin wheels, love daddy's golf balls. you love life.
speaking of golf balls, you have a putter, a very special putter that you carry around everywhere. you love your golf club and your daddy and grandpa love that you love your golf club.
names i call you... sweetness... bubba... mr. jed... dude... buddy.
i love you so much.
i will always try my best to first serve God, then be a great wife, followed by a great mother. i pray continually for wisdom and strength in those roles. please have grace when i fall short.
i love you. nothing will ever change that.
mommy
11.17.11
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